Thoughts..

Why is it so hard to know where we stand spiritually. I think us mixed cultured people have these feelings of being torn tword what belief is the truth. Is there a true belief?!

I feel more pull tword one cultures beliefs, and then they are the hardest at times to be accepted into. After what my people have gone through I can't blame them but they truely have to look at the ones whom are being pushed away because we have a strong need to be taught and practice, and there are lots of us dying with a sense of disconnection and unfullfilment. Hidden knowledge is dying with us. Why I believe this is hard to explain, but I believe we are born with a sense of the knowledge. As children we show it, and as we grow-up it is pushed aside or out of us, and then we are left lost and with out passing it on. We can't pass it on because we aren't taught how it is use, savor, worship, consumme it, and or how it is to be passed on.

I remember as a child practically living outdoors. My grandmother telling me whom I am. While playing outside I never felt any disconnection. I believed.... In everything as a whole. I still do. I believe in plants helping us, and everything I made was from the earth. All this is still in my soul. Somewhere along the line of entering school and being forced to grow up made me question myself, my beliefs, and what I had know as a child. Books can only teach you so much and tend to leave you longing for more! I struggle daily to try and figure out all I knew, learned, and believed. Im trying to write it all down; but there are missing pieces of the puzzle!

This is why I went camping to try and figure things out. It didn't work out that way. Oh well another time I hope.
Marie